I finally made it to the 240's! Feels good. I have seen some improvement in my belly area. It's a little flatter than last week. Not as much change in the other areas though.
Physically I feel better. Less body aches and back aches. I'm still tired a lot at times. But at least I'm not in pain.
This week, I cut out most fruit. I limited my calories to 1,200 and I included exercise every day. That was a lot of changes. I was hungry at times. But not so hungry that I was kept up at night which was the big issue with cutting calories.
I'm not going to lie. At times it has been a struggle. I have to make myself cook in the mornings when I'm tired. It just takes me a while to get going.
I think I'm for sure going to keep up the exercise. I might incorporate a little more fruit as long as I can stay within my calorie range. That seems to have been the big difference this week. I realize that while I was eating healthy, I was definitely going over 1,200 calories.
I feel like my measurements should have been better. My upper body is not seeing much improvement at all, and I did a lot of arm work this week. It seems like the skin is looser so at least something is happening. Might have to try weights again. Mine were stolen, so I will need to buy some.
Overall, I'm proud of myself for getting to the 240's. I worked hard for it this week. I just need to keep motivated and keep up this momentum.
I'm 14 lbs away from my Personal Goal!
Measurements: Waist 48.5", Thigh 21.5", Calf 17.5", Wrist 7 1/4", Hips 52", Upper belly 50", Neck 16", Upper arm 16", Forearm 11 7/8", Bust 46.5"
Friday, March 8, 2013
Friday, March 1, 2013
Week 23 250.8
I really wish that I could have updated my blog yesterday. I had finally gotten down to 249! My goal for this week was to make it to the 240's. I don't know why my weight has been fluctuating by as much as 2 lbs every day. I thought that exercising was causing me to gain, so I didn't exercise Tues-Thurs. But it doesn't look like that's what's causing the fluctuation. So, I may need to start again. Also, I finally got my period, so maybe I'm having bloating or water weight issues.
This week I've hardly had any fruit. I guess that's not making me gain or lose, so I might be able to add some back. It's kind of hard to try to figure out what works and what doesn't, but I know I need to focus on the big picture.
For example, I'm losing inches! Almost all of my measurements were down this week! My huge upper belly area that I had is almost gone! I feel very relieved about that. It was causing so many problems. I do need to work on using weights for my upper body because my upper arms are not going down at all.
I'm trying to not get discouraged that changes are not happening faster. The number on the scale really disappointed me. Only 0.4 lb difference from last week. However, I'm learning new habits, gaining a new life. There are so many benefits that have nothing to do with the scale that I can put things into perspective. It's not always easy to do that, I have low moments, but I'm trying to look at the positive side of things. There will be good days and bad days, good weeks and bad weeks. The important thing is that I don't give up.
I finally got my Wheat Belly book and Wheat Belly Cookbook in, so I'm excited to learn new recipes. This week I learned how to make a flaxseed wrap and it's good! Also, a lot of other people I know are doing different diets, so maybe people we know will be more accommodating to our diets.
Measurements: Waist 49", Thigh 21.5", Calf 17.5", Wrist 7", Hips 52", Upper Belly 50", Neck 16", Upper Arm 15.5", Forearm 11.5", Bust 47"
This week I've hardly had any fruit. I guess that's not making me gain or lose, so I might be able to add some back. It's kind of hard to try to figure out what works and what doesn't, but I know I need to focus on the big picture.
For example, I'm losing inches! Almost all of my measurements were down this week! My huge upper belly area that I had is almost gone! I feel very relieved about that. It was causing so many problems. I do need to work on using weights for my upper body because my upper arms are not going down at all.
I'm trying to not get discouraged that changes are not happening faster. The number on the scale really disappointed me. Only 0.4 lb difference from last week. However, I'm learning new habits, gaining a new life. There are so many benefits that have nothing to do with the scale that I can put things into perspective. It's not always easy to do that, I have low moments, but I'm trying to look at the positive side of things. There will be good days and bad days, good weeks and bad weeks. The important thing is that I don't give up.
I finally got my Wheat Belly book and Wheat Belly Cookbook in, so I'm excited to learn new recipes. This week I learned how to make a flaxseed wrap and it's good! Also, a lot of other people I know are doing different diets, so maybe people we know will be more accommodating to our diets.
Measurements: Waist 49", Thigh 21.5", Calf 17.5", Wrist 7", Hips 52", Upper Belly 50", Neck 16", Upper Arm 15.5", Forearm 11.5", Bust 47"
Friday, February 22, 2013
Week 24 251.2
This week has been very easy. I've been learning lots of new recipes and my husband loves them! I do too :) I really wish I would have lost more weight. I've been basically the same weight all week. However, overall since I've started, I've lost 8 lbs so that's good for the end of week 2. Also, I've lost some inches!
I've actually gained in some places but I think I know why. My body already looks different. For example, my upper belly fat has shifted down lower which means it's shrinking. Because of that, the fat that was above my waist has moved lower to my waist region. That means that my waist has gained an inch, but my upper belly has lost half and inch! So, I'm not letting these things get me down because I know that my body is just changing. My husband even noticed!
Also, my clothes are fitting better. One shirt that was tight on me is now a little loose. It's amazing. I didn't think I'd see these results so soon.
Physically, I've been really tired and felt sick a couple of days. But I think it may be hormones due to my period being late (no it's not that!).
I'm learning more and more about what does and doesn't work. Although I haven't been hungry I think it's because I'm eating a little too much and too many carbs in the form of fruit and veggies. So, I need to cut back on those things and see if the weight loss speeds up. I'm also going to start walking again for 20 min on the treadmill like I did today and see if that helps. I'm kind of scared it will increase my appetite, but we will just have to see. I enjoy the physical benefits exercise gives me, so I think I need it anyway.
Lately, I've been kind of panicking thinking of what I'm going to do in social situations. How can I avoid wheat at all costs? I'm afraid that any bit of wheat will lead to a big increased appetite or affect me badly somehow. But I guess I will just have to deal with it one situation at at time. I hate how people think you're weird if you choose to abstain from a food group. It's really none of their business.
I cannot wait to get out of the 250's and into the 240's. I wish it would have happened this week, but I'm so close. I'm rooting for sometime next week.
I feel like a change has happened in me. This is the first time I've felt that 'healthy high' since I lost that 60lbs. I've been searching for it ever since early 2012. It's taken me a year to find it again. Hopefully, I can keep on track, no I WILL keep on track and just see what works and what doesn't and go from there.
Measurements: Waist 50", Thigh 21 7/8", Calf 17 7/8", Wrist 7 1/8", Hips 52", Upper Belly 51", Neck 15 15/16", Upper arm 16 7/8", Forearm 11 7/8", Bust 48"
I've actually gained in some places but I think I know why. My body already looks different. For example, my upper belly fat has shifted down lower which means it's shrinking. Because of that, the fat that was above my waist has moved lower to my waist region. That means that my waist has gained an inch, but my upper belly has lost half and inch! So, I'm not letting these things get me down because I know that my body is just changing. My husband even noticed!
Also, my clothes are fitting better. One shirt that was tight on me is now a little loose. It's amazing. I didn't think I'd see these results so soon.
Physically, I've been really tired and felt sick a couple of days. But I think it may be hormones due to my period being late (no it's not that!).
I'm learning more and more about what does and doesn't work. Although I haven't been hungry I think it's because I'm eating a little too much and too many carbs in the form of fruit and veggies. So, I need to cut back on those things and see if the weight loss speeds up. I'm also going to start walking again for 20 min on the treadmill like I did today and see if that helps. I'm kind of scared it will increase my appetite, but we will just have to see. I enjoy the physical benefits exercise gives me, so I think I need it anyway.
Lately, I've been kind of panicking thinking of what I'm going to do in social situations. How can I avoid wheat at all costs? I'm afraid that any bit of wheat will lead to a big increased appetite or affect me badly somehow. But I guess I will just have to deal with it one situation at at time. I hate how people think you're weird if you choose to abstain from a food group. It's really none of their business.
I cannot wait to get out of the 250's and into the 240's. I wish it would have happened this week, but I'm so close. I'm rooting for sometime next week.
I feel like a change has happened in me. This is the first time I've felt that 'healthy high' since I lost that 60lbs. I've been searching for it ever since early 2012. It's taken me a year to find it again. Hopefully, I can keep on track, no I WILL keep on track and just see what works and what doesn't and go from there.
Measurements: Waist 50", Thigh 21 7/8", Calf 17 7/8", Wrist 7 1/8", Hips 52", Upper Belly 51", Neck 15 15/16", Upper arm 16 7/8", Forearm 11 7/8", Bust 48"
Thursday, February 14, 2013
255 New weight challenge
Well, tomorrow would have been week 13 on my 25 week challenge. I should be at 234 lbs if I had kept at it, one lb shy of reaching my private goal. As you can see, that didn't quite work out.
But one of the "Things I need to work on" goals was that I don't give up when things go wrong. And wrong did they go!
I had a traumatic death in my family, sickness and a whole bunch of stress on top of that. Everything that could go wrong did. But I'm realizing that eating badly is making any bad situations that come up worse. Eating bad is not a stress relief anymore. It's causing so much stress for me because I feel bad all the time. Weight has either increased or redistributed in odd places that is making it hard for me to move and even breathe.
I've been doing a lot of research and discovered a book called Wheat Belly. I've heard about this from friends in passing before but blew it off. I mistakenly believed that as long as you keep carbs under a certain amount everyday that it doesn't matter where those carbs come from. Boy was I wrong! Wheat is bad for you!! I won't go into detail, but I mentioned it because I'm cutting out wheat and gluten from my diet. I've been on it for four days now and I have lost 5 lbs!
What's amazing is that I'm not dreaming about food, I'm not obsessively counting calories, and I don't have those terrible hunger pains! Of course, I don't know what the future will bring with this new way of eating, but I have to say I'm excited. Also, I will probably need to start exercising and eventually counting calories/carbs to keep losing if I reach a plateau, but I just feel in my heart that what the book is talking about makes perfect sense!
SO, I'm restarting my 25 week challenge starting with tomorrow ending in week 25. I'm not going to blog tomorrow, so consider this my one-day-early blog for that week. This brings my 60lb weight loss goal date to August 9th. I should reach my private goal by May 17 (hopefully). This time, I'm not going to freak out if I'm slower than my goals. As long as I'm moving forward. But having a goal gives me something to look forward to. It's so easy to lose track of time and what I've really done, or haven't done *sigh*.
I want to make the rest of this year great!
Measurements: (taken on 2/18/13) Waist 49.5", Upper Belly 51.5", Hips 52.5", Bust 49", Neck 16", Upper arm 15.5", Forearm 11 3/4", Wrist 7 3/8", Thigh 22.5", Calf 17.5"
But one of the "Things I need to work on" goals was that I don't give up when things go wrong. And wrong did they go!
I had a traumatic death in my family, sickness and a whole bunch of stress on top of that. Everything that could go wrong did. But I'm realizing that eating badly is making any bad situations that come up worse. Eating bad is not a stress relief anymore. It's causing so much stress for me because I feel bad all the time. Weight has either increased or redistributed in odd places that is making it hard for me to move and even breathe.
I've been doing a lot of research and discovered a book called Wheat Belly. I've heard about this from friends in passing before but blew it off. I mistakenly believed that as long as you keep carbs under a certain amount everyday that it doesn't matter where those carbs come from. Boy was I wrong! Wheat is bad for you!! I won't go into detail, but I mentioned it because I'm cutting out wheat and gluten from my diet. I've been on it for four days now and I have lost 5 lbs!
What's amazing is that I'm not dreaming about food, I'm not obsessively counting calories, and I don't have those terrible hunger pains! Of course, I don't know what the future will bring with this new way of eating, but I have to say I'm excited. Also, I will probably need to start exercising and eventually counting calories/carbs to keep losing if I reach a plateau, but I just feel in my heart that what the book is talking about makes perfect sense!
SO, I'm restarting my 25 week challenge starting with tomorrow ending in week 25. I'm not going to blog tomorrow, so consider this my one-day-early blog for that week. This brings my 60lb weight loss goal date to August 9th. I should reach my private goal by May 17 (hopefully). This time, I'm not going to freak out if I'm slower than my goals. As long as I'm moving forward. But having a goal gives me something to look forward to. It's so easy to lose track of time and what I've really done, or haven't done *sigh*.
I want to make the rest of this year great!
Measurements: (taken on 2/18/13) Waist 49.5", Upper Belly 51.5", Hips 52.5", Bust 49", Neck 16", Upper arm 15.5", Forearm 11 3/4", Wrist 7 3/8", Thigh 22.5", Calf 17.5"
Friday, November 30, 2012
Week 24 255.2
This week hasn't gone very well as far as diet goes. It started off good. Found out that I had to eat a few extra calories at night in order to be able to sleep without having hunger pains keep me up all night :(
Then on Wednesday night, I pretty much blew it. But I still exercised. I have been on a de-cluttering streak. I have been so sick and tired of all the junk I've been hoarding that I just started throwing crap away. It felt really good. So good in fact that I want to do more of it when I have the energy. The exercise has been giving me more energy. Except for today because I didn't sleep all night for some reason.
I think that this diet is too strict for me. When I exercise I get hungry! Which is normal, but not if you are on a 1,200 calorie diet. So, I'm going to tweak it next week. I'm going to eat the same for breakfast and lunch and then at dinner eat a healthy-ish but not necessarily low carb meal. I think this will give me the fuel not to be hungry all night and have energy to exercise like I want to. I can try it and see...
This week I finally feel better! Still have a little cotton feeling in one of my ears and a little cough but nothing like it was.
The last couple of days have been really hard for me. A lot of feelings are coming up. I partly know why, and the other part I don't. I've been going through old journals and putting them all together, I have been battling my weight solidly for 8 years. I've been doing the same things over and over and over. The same failures over and over, save for the time I lost 60 lbs and I don't even know how that really happened anymore. My weight has been pretty much the same for 8 years. It's crazy. And scary. And sad. And I don't want to do it anymore but sometimes I feel like I don't know how to not be fat. It's become so much of who I am while I've been trying to act as though it doesn't exist. As if this is just a passing phase of my life, and not my actual life. That's why I never buy new clothes. Because I feel like this is not really me. Cuz I'm always thinking I'm going to lose weight and the clothes will just be wasted.
I think I need a drink. How many carbs does vodka have?
Waist 50", Bust 49", Hips 53", Thigh 22 1/4"
Then on Wednesday night, I pretty much blew it. But I still exercised. I have been on a de-cluttering streak. I have been so sick and tired of all the junk I've been hoarding that I just started throwing crap away. It felt really good. So good in fact that I want to do more of it when I have the energy. The exercise has been giving me more energy. Except for today because I didn't sleep all night for some reason.
I think that this diet is too strict for me. When I exercise I get hungry! Which is normal, but not if you are on a 1,200 calorie diet. So, I'm going to tweak it next week. I'm going to eat the same for breakfast and lunch and then at dinner eat a healthy-ish but not necessarily low carb meal. I think this will give me the fuel not to be hungry all night and have energy to exercise like I want to. I can try it and see...
This week I finally feel better! Still have a little cotton feeling in one of my ears and a little cough but nothing like it was.
The last couple of days have been really hard for me. A lot of feelings are coming up. I partly know why, and the other part I don't. I've been going through old journals and putting them all together, I have been battling my weight solidly for 8 years. I've been doing the same things over and over and over. The same failures over and over, save for the time I lost 60 lbs and I don't even know how that really happened anymore. My weight has been pretty much the same for 8 years. It's crazy. And scary. And sad. And I don't want to do it anymore but sometimes I feel like I don't know how to not be fat. It's become so much of who I am while I've been trying to act as though it doesn't exist. As if this is just a passing phase of my life, and not my actual life. That's why I never buy new clothes. Because I feel like this is not really me. Cuz I'm always thinking I'm going to lose weight and the clothes will just be wasted.
I think I need a drink. How many carbs does vodka have?
Waist 50", Bust 49", Hips 53", Thigh 22 1/4"
Friday, November 23, 2012
Week 25 252.8
This is my week 25 check in.
This week hasn't been easy for so many reasons. First of all, I'm still sick. The holiday was this week, then there is Black Friday, which starts the day before now, and today we have a wedding to go to. Strange week to start my 25 week challenge off on.
I don't know why I lose so much at first. I don't think this is the way to go. I have been ravenously hungry to the point that it keeps me up at night. But I'm not hungry in my head, I'm hungry in my stomach which is somewhat easier to ignore. But sometimes I think I have hunger psychosis. I start dreaming about food which is just ridiculous! I hate how my body fights against me even though I'm trying to heal it and do something good for it :(
I think I'm going to include a few more carbs in at least dinner. I've been eating just lean meat and veggies for dinner and it feels like my body is lacking something. What I'm saying is that I'm afraid if I eat too strict that I'm going to go crazy and go on a binge. That's what I'm trying to avoid.
What has really been hard this week for me besides food is exercise. I want to exercise so bad! I'm exhausted from being sick, woozy from the meds, and coughing like crazy which gets worse with movement. I did a little exercising this week before things got crazy busy. I just feel so weak. I want to get to feeling better so bad. I can't hear out of one of my ears which makes everything a blur.
Hopefully, in the next week or two my health will improve to the point where I can go a lot harder at exercise. It gives me energy to do other things in my life and I like that feeling. My range of motion improves as well, and my immune system strengthens. So, there are all kinds of benefits I will get if I can just get well enough to do it.
I've had so many challenges this week, but I know every week won't be like this. I think next week will be easier when I have a normal schedule. You can't beat 7lbs in 5 days, but I know that most weeks will just be a few pounds and that's okay with me.
Measurements: Waist 50", Hips 53", Thigh 22"
This week hasn't been easy for so many reasons. First of all, I'm still sick. The holiday was this week, then there is Black Friday, which starts the day before now, and today we have a wedding to go to. Strange week to start my 25 week challenge off on.
I don't know why I lose so much at first. I don't think this is the way to go. I have been ravenously hungry to the point that it keeps me up at night. But I'm not hungry in my head, I'm hungry in my stomach which is somewhat easier to ignore. But sometimes I think I have hunger psychosis. I start dreaming about food which is just ridiculous! I hate how my body fights against me even though I'm trying to heal it and do something good for it :(
I think I'm going to include a few more carbs in at least dinner. I've been eating just lean meat and veggies for dinner and it feels like my body is lacking something. What I'm saying is that I'm afraid if I eat too strict that I'm going to go crazy and go on a binge. That's what I'm trying to avoid.
What has really been hard this week for me besides food is exercise. I want to exercise so bad! I'm exhausted from being sick, woozy from the meds, and coughing like crazy which gets worse with movement. I did a little exercising this week before things got crazy busy. I just feel so weak. I want to get to feeling better so bad. I can't hear out of one of my ears which makes everything a blur.
Hopefully, in the next week or two my health will improve to the point where I can go a lot harder at exercise. It gives me energy to do other things in my life and I like that feeling. My range of motion improves as well, and my immune system strengthens. So, there are all kinds of benefits I will get if I can just get well enough to do it.
I've had so many challenges this week, but I know every week won't be like this. I think next week will be easier when I have a normal schedule. You can't beat 7lbs in 5 days, but I know that most weeks will just be a few pounds and that's okay with me.
Measurements: Waist 50", Hips 53", Thigh 22"
Monday, November 19, 2012
259 That says it all
I'm not going to go on and on lamenting on how I failed again. I'm just going to get back up from my fall and keep going.
I've always had this weight ceiling that I will never go over. My old weight ceiling was 250. When I got somewhere around 245, a yellow light on my brain would go on. 248, and I would start a diet. Well, somehow along the way, my weight ceiling was raised to 260. I don't even realize how that happened. I'm not going to question it, but I'm sure as hell never gonna raise it again. All I know is that some time last week when I was deathly sick, I somehow weighed in twice at 260.8 and I said, hell no, something has to change!
Speaking of being sick, I've been sicker in the last few months than I've been in a really long time. Sometime in August, I got the flu or maybe just a bad cold that lasted a long time. Then, in the beginning of October, I got a stomach virus. And just recently, I have an upper respiratory infection, and maybe even bronchitis. This is ridiculous. When I was losing weight and eating right, I never got sick. All the exercise strengthened my immune system. I never thought I'd say it, but I look forward to exercising. I want my health and strength back! I want to sweat!
Being at the weight I am now, I know that I can't start out exercising at the level I was before. This week is kind of a soft opening for my diet. Plus, I'm still sick, so I've got to take it easy. That's not an excuse. There are other reasons too. Recently, I have tried going back on my 1,200 calorie low carb diet. I start out really strong, and then I start feeling really sick and eventually lose willpower. I think I need to ease into it. I will probably still be eating at most, 1,500 calories, but I got some fruit to eat as well. I feel like maybe I was shocking my system and it was rebelling against me and causing me to fall off the wagon. I need to at least try this.
I have a 25 week goal. I'm going to lose 59 lbs in 25 weeks, ending May 19, 2013. Hopefully more ;-) My ultimate goal is to reach 170 by the end of December 2013. I have a special and private goal to reach 233. If I lose 2 lbs a week like FitDay say I should to reach my May 19 goal, I should reach my 233 goal in 13 weeks which would bring us to February 18, 2013. This is going to take a lot of willpower. A lot of bad things happened to me in early 2011, but I need to be strong and not let those things control my life. I need to turn something bad into something positive. Create new memories. For me, it makes sense that I would post once a week on Fridays to see where I am.
Things I need to work on:
1. Don't get so hung up on what the scale says. Don't give up because of one or a few bad number days.
2. Stop being jealous of the past and the success I used to have. Stop comparing my new self with my old self.
3. Don't turn to food or self hatred when things go wrong (and they will!)
4. Don't freak out if something doesn't work. Use it as a learning lesson, and tweak what you have to to stay on track.
5. Accept what is, move on, and do better.
6. Slow down, weight loss doesn't happen overnight!
Measurements: Wrist 7 3/8", Upper Arm 16", Forearm 11 3/8", Thigh 23 1/8", Calf 18.5", Neck 16.5", Waist 50.5", Hips 54", Bust 46.5"
I've always had this weight ceiling that I will never go over. My old weight ceiling was 250. When I got somewhere around 245, a yellow light on my brain would go on. 248, and I would start a diet. Well, somehow along the way, my weight ceiling was raised to 260. I don't even realize how that happened. I'm not going to question it, but I'm sure as hell never gonna raise it again. All I know is that some time last week when I was deathly sick, I somehow weighed in twice at 260.8 and I said, hell no, something has to change!
Speaking of being sick, I've been sicker in the last few months than I've been in a really long time. Sometime in August, I got the flu or maybe just a bad cold that lasted a long time. Then, in the beginning of October, I got a stomach virus. And just recently, I have an upper respiratory infection, and maybe even bronchitis. This is ridiculous. When I was losing weight and eating right, I never got sick. All the exercise strengthened my immune system. I never thought I'd say it, but I look forward to exercising. I want my health and strength back! I want to sweat!
Being at the weight I am now, I know that I can't start out exercising at the level I was before. This week is kind of a soft opening for my diet. Plus, I'm still sick, so I've got to take it easy. That's not an excuse. There are other reasons too. Recently, I have tried going back on my 1,200 calorie low carb diet. I start out really strong, and then I start feeling really sick and eventually lose willpower. I think I need to ease into it. I will probably still be eating at most, 1,500 calories, but I got some fruit to eat as well. I feel like maybe I was shocking my system and it was rebelling against me and causing me to fall off the wagon. I need to at least try this.
I have a 25 week goal. I'm going to lose 59 lbs in 25 weeks, ending May 19, 2013. Hopefully more ;-) My ultimate goal is to reach 170 by the end of December 2013. I have a special and private goal to reach 233. If I lose 2 lbs a week like FitDay say I should to reach my May 19 goal, I should reach my 233 goal in 13 weeks which would bring us to February 18, 2013. This is going to take a lot of willpower. A lot of bad things happened to me in early 2011, but I need to be strong and not let those things control my life. I need to turn something bad into something positive. Create new memories. For me, it makes sense that I would post once a week on Fridays to see where I am.
Things I need to work on:
1. Don't get so hung up on what the scale says. Don't give up because of one or a few bad number days.
2. Stop being jealous of the past and the success I used to have. Stop comparing my new self with my old self.
3. Don't turn to food or self hatred when things go wrong (and they will!)
4. Don't freak out if something doesn't work. Use it as a learning lesson, and tweak what you have to to stay on track.
5. Accept what is, move on, and do better.
6. Slow down, weight loss doesn't happen overnight!
Measurements: Wrist 7 3/8", Upper Arm 16", Forearm 11 3/8", Thigh 23 1/8", Calf 18.5", Neck 16.5", Waist 50.5", Hips 54", Bust 46.5"
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