How many freaking times am I going to post that I'm starting over and way motivated and stuff?!? I hate myself for that. I let myself and this blog down, ugh! So, ya here I am again. I feel like I just slipped up from the last time, but that was a looong slip up. It's now a month later and I'm at it again. Well, not long after I fell off the wagon, I injured myself.
I was bending over a drawer organizing my nail polishes. I had been at it for a while when all of a sudden I felt a hot burning feeling in my lower back and then it was like a lightning bolt struck it. I tried to stand up but couldn't. I could only manage a hunched over position and made it to my office chair. My back was racked with spasms. I could barely walk. I stayed on the couch or in a sitting position for 24 hrs until I finally decided that the severe pain I was in was intolerable. I had to go to the doctor. She diagnosed muscle spasms probably from a pulled muscle and loaded me up with pain medication and muscle relaxers. I was in a haze for about 2 weeks. I had to have help getting up and even taking a bath. Brushing my teeth was excruciating because bending over the sink was almost impossible.
Little by little it got better. My brother who's a massage therapist also massaged my back and it felt better. I'm pretty much completely better now, but it scared the crap out of me. Carrying all this weight is really bad for my muscles, among other things. I just can't live like that in a haze of medication. I need to get the weight off and strengthen my back muscles so that this crap doesn't happen again!
This week, I tried to say on 1,200 calories and under 100 carbs. I also got the 'great' idea to incorporate fruit into my low carb diet. Not sure if that was the greatest thing. I've only lost 5 lbs this week and I feel terrible physically. Eating lots of fat always left me wanting something, but this time I've been having severe stomach growling at night which keeps me up and really bad diarrhea. So, I think I'm going to stop the fruit and eat more fat. I've just got to tweak it along the way, and probably check out my old food journals.
I feel like part of the reason I lost weight the last time was because the Metformin made me lose my appetite, but now my body has adjusted to it. I sure wish I could find something for my appetite. I swing from nauseous to ravenously hungry and it really messes with my moods and energy. I've really had to exercise my willpower today. I just keep thinking of all the pain I was in and how I don't want to go back to that. I'm not going to post my measurements until I feel like I lost some weight.
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